what you would do if I gave you a chance to make things right...

I have came to realize that aside from having a hard charity of confidence and charm; one has to make very sure to make an outstanding first Impression. The first impression you make on a girl can have a major impact on the way she sees you from that point forward.

This guy looked very handsome and I added him to an old social network, he was friend of a friend. Afterwards he added me to messenger so I accepted him and we started to talk but we had never seen. We always had something to talk about and we had confidence to talk about everything. One day I went to the mall with my friends and he was there, we didn’t know if say hi or something but we just pass by like we didn’t know each other. Time pass and he asked me for my phone number so I gave it to him and sometimes he called just to ask how I was. Months later he knew some friend of my new school and he asks her if she knew me, and she told him that we were going to the same school.

One day we went out with my friends and he was there it was the first time we see each other and talk, but he looks really different from the photo I had seen, its very uncomfortable to write about it because it sounds like weird we met from a social network, but he was a nice guy. Later we start typing messages and talking more often and ganging out more, He was incredibly nice with me and he dedicate me a song. 


One day I went to an activity of his school with him and we were hugging all the time it was kind of romantic and I felt good, I don’t know it was a weird feeling that I haven’t felt lately, but later I was strange because I didn’t know what I wanted. That year we continue seen each other, talking and so on. He always told me cute things and let me tell you that I felt special in those moments. We passed a lot of different things sometimes I liked him and sometimes he just wanted to introduce me one his friends, it was weird. He went to an exchange and we stop talking a long time. When he came back we didn’t see each other until 3 months later. When I saw him in a friend’s birthday I was very pleasant to see him again, we pass the night together and talk about many things and I had a GREAT night. The next day when I woke up I had a message from him. We talk but I was like mean because I didn’t know if I really wanted to be with him. That day he dedicate me another song and I appreciated but I didn’t know what to do. He just realized that I was not interest in him so he started to move on.

He get mad with me because I liked some other guy and he tell me  that how I could did that to him and I felt really bad but things happen other way. I looked like he move on very quickly and I didn’t. I felt bad about all the things he said to me and how what I did looked really mean and now it’s like we haven’t had something, just like strangers. I was afraid of having a relationship because first it was the first time I had something like that with someone and second of all I cared about what people said. But on days I think I don’t meet somebody because of the things I did to him. Maybe If I had given him a chance we could had something nice but things wasn’t like I think now maybe everything were different . And yes maybe I regret but like I always say “everything happens for a reason”. Now I understand that you like people not only because of his appearance but of how they are from the inside and maybe I haven’t got that clearly in that moment but now I know what I’m talking about. Until today I haven't had a real and serious relationship but I know one day I will meet someone who loves me just the way I am.

Friendship is just a word, but my girls give it a meaning..

   I think that all the people who a person interacts with every day leave a mark in one’s mind and influence some aspect of their personality. Some people have such vivid characters, that just one meeting with them is enough to leave a strong impact. I have met many different and interesting people who have played important roles in helping me shape my personality and who have even caused major changes in my life. For this reason, it is hard for me to choose a single person who has had an important influence on me. It is not just one person, they are 8 people who had a great impact in my life. Each one of them has very different personality but we have something that joins us together.

Everyone has their own definition of what their own best friend is like and what an impact they has made in their life, but for me Best friends are people whom you can trust with your deepest secrets, with the understanding that you will not be betrayed. Best friends drop tears along with you in trying moments, and cheer and laugh along with you when you are successful in what you do. There are certain qualities that make a friend a best friend. What are these qualities? It does not depend on how pretty they are, nor does it depend on their wealth. There are more important qualities than wealth and status in a person. Being a best Friend is more than seeing each other in school every day or knowing them since Kindergarten, but the truth is that a best friend is the one who knows you from the inside and accepts the way you are, knows your flaws and accept it. In addition, we can express our feelings and can be sure that they really listen to us.

My girls and me always hang out, went to the movies, mall, out to eat. We love to party and that’s one of the tons of thing we have in common, we love clothe, nice heels, and we always share and help what to wear, If we get in trouble for something all of us face it together. I love to be with them because we always have different theme of conversations, sometimes we gossip and think that we are the top of the world, and that’s kind of funny but at the end we laugh at us. We love to make inside jokes nobody would understand and each of us have something to tease with and we laugh a lot until our stomach hurts. We have sense of humor, we might see immature and childish, but we only have a good time. I like our friendship group because beside we are a big group we manage to reconsider our vales, the way we see ourselves and the way we perceive life in general. We are honest every time. We carry ourselves; we take care of each other. We had passed a lot of problems together but no matter what, we always support us in the good and rough times. It’s just about best friends’ things…

One day we were talking to live together, can you imagine that! Our department would be like the pre party place all the time. The department would be clean because we are kind of organized. And about cocking each one of us would see what to eat, but I know that one would be nice and cook for all, maybe sometimes could be me. We have a lot of good and crazy ideas, but we have different plans and desires for life.

 I found my best friends in high school, because when I got older I realized who my real friends were. I consider myself fortunate to have them as my friends. They are a source of strength and guide to me. They may be the craziest and weird people you can meet but if you get to know them you will see all the special and brilliant things I see in them and not even all this words could express the appreciation a have to each one of my girls. I hope that no matter what we kept in touch and if years go by, no matter how distanced we’ll be, we’ll never be apart

Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself

   Two years ago I was in my freshman year. I had a real good time every day; I used to go to parties, hang out with my friends, met new people and have a normal life. One day I start to sleep more than the usual let me tell you I used to sleep a lot. My glands start to inflame and I felt uncomfortable, them my wrist joint hurts a lot so I told my mom and we went to the doctor. By the symptoms he thought it was a viral infection and he said we have to wait, but 2 months later I had the same pain in my wrist. The doctor recommend me to go to a specialist to see what was happening, He prescribe some blood exams. I went to the laboratory to make my exams and they give me the results. I was very calm because I never thought something bad can happen, so I try to keep it easy.

Days later I had an appointment with the doctor, well I was diagnosed lupus, it is chronic autoimmune disease that affects the connective tissue characterizes by inflammation and tissue damage mediated by the immune system, specifically because of the union of the body’s cells and the deposit of complex antigen-antibodies. I had no idea what was that, but my mom did. She was very sad and she start crying because her aunt and my second grade cousin died because of lupus, in that time the treatments and the medical control wasn’t studied as now on days. I had to take a treatment but I didn’t start since the day they told me the news. My parents thought that if they treatment me with native medicine It would be better for my body. I start to miss at school because I was very sick, my hands where swollen that I couldn’t even grab my fork to eat, I had terrible headache and muscular sorrow.

I missed a lot my friends, going to school even if you don’t believe me, my friend’s birthday and my social life. I start absent school since final days of September; I was in bed all the time, I couldn’t even stand up to the bathroom and sit on the bowl because my thigh hurt a lot. I spent 1 month and a half in bed. One day my parents realize that the natural medicine wasn’t working as they thought so they took me to a rheumatic doctor, who is the one that examine rheumatic diseases, he told my parents I was almost in the limit; it means I was very sick. He prescribe some medicines I had to take that my parents didn’t agree, but it was for my health. I had to take 45mg of cortisone, take care of the sun and some other indications to make me feel better and to have controlled my diseased.

Let me tell you, when he told me I had to take care of the sun, he killed me. I loved the sun, tan, going to the beach; it was my favorite things to do. I hate being that white and when I tanned I loved how I looked, now is very different because I have to buy those autobroncers that last 2 days. I have to find a way to cover myself, I can’t use any clothe I like and I love clothing, shorts, skirts, dresses, tank tops. My life change a lot not only because I was a teenager also I wasn’t that older to change my life that drastic, I know it sounds kind of dramatic but it is really difficult to me to find cute things to cover my skin from the sun. With the cortisone your body change a lot, not only cause it affects your organism, but also because it swell up your stomach, face, legs and If you are a girl you understand what I’m talking about and that was one of the things that take me time to accept, I hate how my body looks, my face and my stomach principal. Now my face has reduced a lot since last year, but still I have to take my pills every day, try to give my best and live my life as normal as I can because I know if I have faith maybe a miracle will grant power of me.